Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Barrett's Sick Day

Barrett stayed with Sweets and Pops today. We went to the doctor yesterday because he ran a high fever on Sunday. Dr. Singletary looked at his ears and did bloodwork but could find nothing wrong. While we were in the office his temperature reached 102. Her conclusion...a fever virus. So he got to play hooky from school today. He looks like he feels awful, doesn't he? Thanks for keeping him, Pops and Sweets, and thanks for sharing the pictures of his first official sick day with y'all!
Barrett's Sick Day
April 28, 2009

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Double Decker...

All four of us went to Double Decker together this year. It was Barrett's 2nd Double Decker. (Yes, we took him last year when he was only a week old!) It was Cousar's 3rd. I can remember vividly the April 2005 Double Decker and leaving in tears because every where I looked there were babies! And then in April 2007 (Cousar's 1st Double Decker) informing him as I put him in the stroller that he was going to have a good time whether he wanted to or not because I had waited a long time to take my baby to a Double Decker festival!

Barrett and Cousar taking it all in...
Barrett looking for Cousar...
He had left the wagon to check out the animals at the petting zoo...
Looking at the animals...
Wiping the grain off his hands...We both fed the animals...Yes, even me...I will probably never do it again...
Back in the wagon...It took a balloon to get him to leave the animals...
Listening to the bands...
Taking a juice break...
We ran into Kate and Tracie...Kate joined Cousar in the wagon...
Barrett and Justin...
The boys lasted 2 hours! The Square was so CROWDED...we may leave Double Decker to the tourists next year!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

I just like the picture

Justin and the boys
April 12, 2009
This post has nothing to do with the picture...I just like the picture. Both of the boys watching television and Justin texting on the cell phone...I wonder what's going thru their little minds...
On to the post...Cousar stood up for Barrett today at school. A little boy in the room next to Cousar's pushed Barrett down on the playground. We'll call him Billy the Bully to protect his identity. Well before Billy had a chance to take his hands off Barrett, Cousar had him laid out on the ground...That's right, Cousar made sure no one else would try that again in his presence! I probably shouldn't have, but I high-fived Cousar for protecting his little brother...I hope he always does!

It ain't easy being green...

On Saturday we had Barrett's green themed birthday party. I wish I had been clever enough to say we picked the theme in honor of Earth Day, but I selected it because of the outfit that I assumed he would wear to the party. Little girls always have pink parties so below is our answer with the green party...By the way, thank you, Sweets, for everything you did to help! I couldn't have pulled it off without you! Only 7 more months until Cousar's...

Sign at the end of our road...
Sign at the end of the driveway...
The birthday cake turned out better than I imagined...
The "smash" cake...
Green dots were hanging all over the house! This mobile hung above the birthday cake...
The candy bar/party favor table...
The food table centerpiece...
The garage converted to a green room...
The fabulous banner with green lanterns added...

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Prayer

I am sure that many of you have noticed the Praying for Stellan link on the right side of my page. I have been following his mother's blogging for several weeks now. She did a post earlier today on prayer. It spoke to me, and I thought you all might enjoy reading it. The link is below...but I've also pasted it here... http://www.mycharmingkids.net/2009/04/why-bother-praying.html Wednesday, April 22, 2009 Why bother praying? If you've been reading my blog for long, you've heard it. Either here or perhaps on someone else's blog: Pray for Stellan! This journey with our baby of late, and all this talk about prayer for him, has really gotten me thinking. Since being in the hospital with Stellan for a month now, I've had plenty of time to contemplate some deeper issues regarding prayer that I don't always think much about during my day to day life. You know, because I am usually deep in diapers, dirty dishes, drool and drama. And the emails I have gotten in my inbox, as well as comments I've received on my blog indicate that there are similar questions about prayer out there, too. I would be willing to guess some of you who have not asked are also wondering. So I have spent some time during these last few days sorting out in my mind my beliefs about the purpose of prayer. And, well since this is my blog and all, I'd like to share them here. Keep in mind, if you will, that I am neither a minister nor a theological expert. I am just a mama who loves the Lord. Well I did get a Bible degree, in addition to my other art-related majors. Everyone who attended the Christian college I did was required to double major in Bible. Hopefully it's still like that, but I don't know. I'm not in touch with my alma mater much. You know, because of all the diapers, dirty dishes, drool and drama I deal with on a day to day basis. Anyway. As I said, I've been thinking about the purpose of prayer. Since so many people have been praying for Stellan, I can't help but wonder if quantities of prayers reach God's ears any faster or better than one single, solitary prayer. Have you wondered if more people praying for Stellan make it more likely that God will spare our son's life? Additionally, I actually have heard rumblings of people believing that prayers by me might have more weight in God's eyes, or that if a certain prayer request is posted on my blog that God might be more likely to change His mind about a certain prayer request, since so many more people would be likely to pray, given the large exposure here. There are things I have had to try to balance in my own head. In fact, I have an entirely separate post coming soon on the idea of spreading prayer requests for others in the blogosphere using my blog. Wait for it. I think you'll appreciate that post. But today I want to talk about the purpose of prayer. I want to set the record straight about my prayers versus yours, about quantity of prayers, prayers said by believers versus prayers by people who either don't know the Lord or don't usually even pray in the first place. And, most of all, I want to look at the question, "Why bother praying?" I have written before about my belief that God is going to do whatever God wants to do. He is sovereign, He knows all. Before Stellan even went into surgery yesterday, He already knew the outcome. Before Stellan was even born and before anyone on earth had ever said a single solitary prayer for him, God already knew the outcome of Stellan's surgery. Doesn't that just blow your mind? And, if you're human, which I am guessing most of you who read my blog are as I've never had any documented hits from outer space, then you probably have wrestled with other questions about prayer, too. Like, if God already is going to do whatever He is going to do, then why on earth do we need to bother praying in the first place!? What's the point!? Well, I am so very glad you asked. I am here today to tell you exactly what the point is. In fact, I have touched on the purpose of prayer here before. Remember this?God answers prayers. Just not always in the way or in the time frame we want. God answers prayers, but the outcome we hope for, and beseech God for, is not always the outcome God has in mind. God hears our prayers. But God still does what He, in His sovereignty, is going to do. He listens to our prayers, hears us each and every time we speak to Him, think to Him, or even groan to Him. God is affected by our prayers and He wants us to pray. But God is still God and our prayers do not change God or His mind, at least not in the way we sometimes think. He knew we were going to pray before we ever prayed. He knows the past, present and future all at once. He listens to our prayers, but our prayers don't change things. God changes things. Hmmm. If God changes things, then why should we bother to pray? Can more prayers, or very heartfelt prayers, be the impetus in changing God's mind about something? Maybe, but with a twist. See, if God were to change His mind about something*, because of our fervent prayers, it will be something that God already knew would happen. He knew that thousands of fervent prayers would be lifted for Stellan. So, maybe He changed His mind about what He was going to do, but He is omniscient, so He already knew He would change His mind. God knows what He is going to do regarding every thing, small and large, that happens in all of our lives from now until the day Jesus returns and we all take up residence somewhere besides earth. *And there is some Biblical evidence about times when it surely does appear that God changed His mind. And regarding the idea that larger numbers of praying people are more likely to impact God? I have no hard evidence in either direction but, to be honest, my gut is telling me that God's will doesn't exactly work on a numbers game like we think it might. However, the more people who pray for someone, the more those people who are doing the praying will see God's glory in the outcome, and be themselves impacted by prayer, so more is certainly still better! Just not in the way it might seem at first glance. Hard to comprehend? I know! It always helps me to remember that I am human. My mind is finite. I cannot be expected to truly understand the infinite. My mind, try as it might, can not get completely wrapped around God and His sovereign ways. Sure, it's fun and valuable to spend time in thought about deep issues concerning Christianity. But. At some point, I have also found that it's okay to let go of my need to understand everything about God. I can study up on God as much as I want, which of course I ought to, and still never reach ultimate understanding on this earth. That, my friends, is where faith comes in. I want to love God, and, ultimately, to trust that whatever He decides is best. To have faith in His omniscient ways regarding prayer, even when I don't understand. Even when I don't see. In fact, Jesus said to those on earth who saw Him in the flesh, "Because you have seen Me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." John 20:29 I, for one, have never seen Jesus in the flesh. Yet I believe. My faith in Him allows me to overlook seemingly insurmountable human roadblocks to my prayer, as well. If God already knows what He's going to do, then why pray? Well, I pray because God tells me to, and because I believe He hears me. I have faith that Jesus was real, did actual miracles, died on a cross, and hears me when I talk to Him. I hope you believe that, too. In fact, as Katie, one of my blog readers said so concisely to me recently,Jesus really lived, he really healed people, he really said he was the only way to heaven, he really died on the cross, and he really walked from the grave and appeared to over 500 witnesses. What that means for your life can be questioned. That it happened, cannot. It is verifiable. In fact, Jesus is the most documented person in history. If we reject his existence, Plato, Socrates, Alexander The Great, Ghengas Khan, William Wallace and Leif Ericsson are in real trouble. Why pray? Jesus was real, God made the earth and all humans, and so for one, it is our responsibility, nay our joy and privilege to be able to communicate with the Creator of all that is, and to His Son, who died for us all. You see, prayer is simply talking with God. We should talk to God like we talk with our friends. If we love Him, and have a relationship with God, we will want to chat with Him. In fact, the more I thought about this question of why bother praying for, say, Stellan's healing if God already knows what's going to happen, the more I realized that the very question implies a misconception about prayer in the first place. The purpose of prayer is not to try to get out of God what we want. Of course, petition is one part of prayer, to be sure. God wants us to bring our requests before Him, as long as we understand that the outcome is entirely up to God, not us. But praying with a favor for God, to ask him to heal Stellan, for example, while all fine and good, is not the only kind of prayer! Because God is good, holy and perfect, He is worthy of our prayers. We are called in the Bible to pray to God, simply to talk to Him, to adore Him, to confess our sins directly to him, to offer Him thanksgiving for what He has done, to share with Him about our day, as well as to come before Him with supplication, requesting a need that we or someone we know has. I, for one, pray to God to get to know His heart better, to be in communion with Him so that I will be able to better discern His will for my life. I pray to draw myself close to the One who already holds me in the palm of His hand, and to bring myself in accordance with Him, and not vice versa! Don't for one second ever let the fact that you don't pray enough, or are horribly sinful, hold you back. Because if you are, you are just like me, and in fact, we are exactly the people God wants to hear from! Anyone can pray to God. Christians and those of any other religion. (Remember, I'm not even religious myself.) Those who believe in God, and those who don't. Those who faithfully pray each day down on their knees and those who have only ever said grace before a meal. I can guarantee you that my prayers, as well as the earnest prayers to the one true living God, and His Son Jesus, of Billy Graham, prostitutes, ordained priests, pirates, grocery bag boys, Presidents and young children are all equally heard, and valued, by God. So go ahead, keep praying for Stellan. And keep contemplating the real purpose of prayer in the first place.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

First Hair Cut

Barrett's first hair cut
April 19, 2009
We finally gave Barrett his much needed first haircut. Both Justin and I insisted that he be one before we trimmed it. I threatened to do it on his birthday Thursday, but he was sick...Then the next two days were busy with the birthday party preparation. We spend a lazy Sunday afternoon at home...I put him in his high chair, and turned on cartoons...I started the process and then Justin finished...I think we did pretty well!!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Cousar
2 1/2 Years
Spring 2009 School Picture
Barrett
One Year
Spring 2009 School Picture

Barrett's 1st Birthday April 16, 2009

Today is Barrett's birthday! And for the first time in his 365 days here on this earth he ran a fever...he woke up with a 103 temperature. So we spent his 1st birthday at home together...

"I feel awful!"
April 16, 2009 "My ears hurt..."
"My throat hurts..."
"How could Cousar leave me on a day like this?"...He stood at the door fussing when Justin and Cousar left...

I didn't swallow it, Mommy!!!

Cousar has a new love of chewing gum...He's been known to chew the same piece for hours on end, but he eventually returns to either me or Justin asking for a new piece...We've got to get that "don't swallow it" thing down soon...
Working on a piece of gum too big for his mouth...
April 16, 2009 "What's in your mouth, Cousar?"
"I didn't swallow it, Mommy! Look!"

Barrett is 1...

My Sweet Barrett,

I can't believe you are 1 year old today! A year ago tonight, you were born, and it was absolutely thrilling. Your birth was one of the most surreal, amazing moments of my life. I remember Dr. Williams laying you on my chest. I thought you were the tiniest thing ever! He and the nurses quickly disagreed, and they were right! You came into this world 9 pounds 13 ounces! That's right, young man - almost 10 pounds. I will be reminding you of that fact in the future, I'm sure.
You are walking now, and it is so funny to watch! You are very, very fast. So fast that usually after you take four or five steps you lose your balance. You are such a monkey, always getting into things and climbing on everything. You especially love little chairs that are just your size. I'm afraid you are going to be quite the daredevil.
You've recently started the most adorable, little baby jabber, and you are often carrying on conversations with us that sound like, "Bleh-bwee-bwah-blah." It makes your daddy and me laugh to hear you "talk." We just wish we knew what you were telling us! You are able to say "Mama" and "DaDa." We are even pretty sure that you are saying "Cousar" or something that sounds a whole lot like it!
You're a pretty good eater, with fruit topping your list of favorites! You are very snuggly - often resting your head on Mama and Daddy's shoulder when we carry you! You are our "hip dweller." That seems to be where you are happiest. When you are super happy you kick your right leg. Big Pop calls it your happy foot! You LOVE your pacifier, and you seem to be a pacifier magnet. You can find them anywhere! There have been a few I thought were lost, and then one day out of the blue you'll come walking in the room with it in your mouth!
You are not the greatest sleeper! Let's be honest, you are an awful sleeper! At night, you have your bottle, and we rock until you fall asleep. You fight it the entire time, and it takes you forever to get in that just right position to fall asleep. Then into the crib you go...for about 20 or 30 minutes. At that point you wake up realizing that you are not in our bed. So over to the bed with us you go. You are still taking two naps a day, but you can sometimes be tough to get to sleep at naptime (much like bedtime).
You very rarely cry when I drop you off at daycare (which makes my day so much easier)! Your teachers, Ms. Zandra and Ms. Mervet, love you very much! Your biggest fear is Cousar's monster truck. When he hits the button to make it move, you are across the room in a flash! Your favorite activities are chasing the vaccuum around the house, and putting objects into boxes and taking them back out...over and over and over again. We are convinced that you will be a dentist when you grow up! For months now you have been obsessed with putting your fingers in our mouths to feel our teeth!
Barrett, you bring a whole lot of joy into our lives! You are a blessing to your daddy and me, and to Cousar. We love you more than words can say.
Love,
Mommy

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Easter Sunday

Cousar was the first to rise on Easter Sunday. Initially he walked right by his Easter basket. Once we pointed it out, he started digging thru it to see what the Easter bunny brought!

Cousar is bringing Barrett his chicken from the Easter bunny. Barrett had not woken up yet. (Notice his basket untouched in the background.) Cousar was very sweet not to disturb it until Barrett was awake!
Barrett finally woke up and Cousar brought his Easter basket to him!
He caught on that everything in the basket was for him pretty quickly!
After church we went to Gina and Keith's house & farm in Lafayette Springs for their annual Easter egg hunt! It has quickly become one of our favorite Easter traditions. They are so sweet to include us as part of the family! Their place is wonderful...horses, riding toys, sandboxes, swing sets, etc...every child's dream farm! I missed taking pictures most of the day...The events included the Easter egg hunt for the kids. Gina hid almost 300 eggs for 5 children to hunt! Needless to say everyone's basket was overflowing! We also had the annual "adult" money hunt. I use the term "adult" loosely! There are no holds barred! I witnessed first hand, Tracey pushing Hunter to the ground when he got between her and a five dollar bill! The hunting was much harder this year. In years past the money could only be found in the front yard! This time we had the entire area to hunt! I found $1, and should have had a $10 that was taped under the hat of a statue I knocked over! I tried to be nice this year and let other people have the money since I pocketed $30 last year! To end the day we had another adult event - the Easter egg race! Kim and I lost, but I want to give her special thanks for the entertainment she provided during the race! Right at the end she slipped in the grass and fell...it was something our mom would have done if she were alive! Kim, I love you, and I am laughing outloud as I recount the moment! We can't wait until next year!
Justin and Barrett watching the hunt...I've been able to capture some great pictures lately of Justin and the boys! They are my favorites!
We made Barrett wear his shoes! He hates walking in them! When he first stands up with them on, he just stares at them like they way 100 tons! Then he reaches up for one of us to help him! He finally got the hang of them though and had plenty of dirt on them by the time we left!
Cousar playing with a truck...
Barrett enjoying the sandbox...
The biggest sandbox in Lafayette Springs...